CRAYOLA.

Back to the days when we were still young when our only problem is forgotten crayolas and art stuffs. Today, here comes thesis (for the others) College Applications, Reportings and many many many more. I cannot take much of those. I want to take it back, to enjoy it all, to never miss a second of my childhood, but I don’t want to go through what I’ve gone through during my High School Days. ONCE IS ENOUGH!

INTRAMS 2010.

First Day — parang wala lang. Medyo kinakabahan. Hahaha. Cheerdance masaya e. Pero di ko parin feel. Tapos naglaro na ng Volleyball. Met new friends. Hi nga pala! Di ko matandaan mga name niyo e. Galing ng Freshmen. Magaling din ang Sophies at Juniors sa Volleyball pero wala na akong ikinagugulat dun.

SECOND DAY– Hahaha. Battle with Freshmen. Astig grabe. Kinabahan talaga ako. Tapos dito na nagstart yung rumors about me being the MVP. Sabi ko, di ako yon. For sure. Tapos panay practice lang.

THIRD DAY — Hahaha. Championships. Nagdikit ang laban nung 1st Set pero ewan ko kung ano nangyari sa Sophies nung 2nd Set. Champion kami. Salamat talaga.

RESULTS:
Over-all Champion: Seniors Babaylan
Cheering Champion: Juniors Kapalaran
Cheerdance Champion: Seniors Babaylan

Congrats sa lahat.
Juniors, ngayon alam niyo na kung anong tuwa ang nadama namin last year kahit natalo niyo kami sa Over-All. Masarap talaga pag nanalo sa Cheering. Goodluck next year, panatiliin niyo na nasa kamay niyo ang inyong KAPALARAN.

SENIORS, ngayon alam na natin ang naranasan ng Seniors last year. Kahit medyo masakit, okay lang. We did our best. Atleast, they got something from us. May naiwan tayo! Ang ating mga telaaaa! ) Love you guys.

P.S.
Salamat sa Juniors na nagyaya parang magpicture kanina. Na-appreciate namin yon. Kala kasi namin galit parin kayo sa amin e. Sorry kung nasaktan namin kayo or nadamay kayo sa pagbubuhos ng emosyon namin.

SHOTGUN?

Matagal tagal na rin ang hindi ko pagbablag! Blag talaga. Kadalasan naman na blag ko kapag may nangyayaring makabuluhan sa buhay ko e o yung mga tipong nakapanghihina ng loob. Katulad ng pagkuha ko sa ARC ko. Aba ewan, di ko alam kung ikatutuwa ko ba o ikalulungkot na wala nga akong PTC pero 3 naman ang line of 7 ko. Last quarter may 1 akong PTC pero 2 lang naman ang line of 7. Apat nga ata e.

Eto pa. Nagalit samin ang Teacher/Adviser namin. I know it’s our fault kasi hindi nga namin binasa yung manuscript. Yun nga. Nakapanghihina lang. Fieldtrip pa. Wala namang kwenta. Sana maayos na yung mga gulo. Ang dami na kasi e. Isa-isahin natin. Inuna natin si Ms. Yves, sumunod si Sir JM followed by Sir Iean and the most recent was Sir Dan. Siya pa! Ang bait bait nun e. Yung tipong walang magawa sa buhay kung hindi asarin ako. Pero okay lang kasi nakababawi naman ako sa kanya. Galit na siya ngayon. Grrr!

Narinig niyo yon? Sabi niya? Ng Adviser natin. “LDS, You’ve become rude this past few weeks”. Bastos naman kasi talaga. Lumagay naman kasi sa tamang kalalagyan. Oo, mabait. Pero pag sa klase umiwas iwas naman sa mga side comments. Ang ingay kasi e. Sakit sa tenga! Magsasalita lang si Basilio magrereact na kayo? Siya nalang ba buhay niyo? Nakakaasar naman kasi talaga. Parang di kayo makakasurvive ng Seton nang hindi siya pinapansin e. Tinatawag niyo siyang abnormal pero what seems to be normal about you? Wala rin diba? Sa ginagawa mong yan. Abnormal ka rin. Natutuwa ka sa bagay na wala namang katuturan. Sinasabi niyong bakla siya? Bakit bakla ka rin? Inagawan ka ba niya ng lalaki? Hindi naman diba? My point is, bakla man si Basilio o hindi, abnormal man yan, wala namang ginawa sayong masama yan. E yung mga may-ari nga ng mga quizzes na hindi niya pinasa e hindi naman ganyan ang trato sa kanya bakit kayo ganyan? Insecure? Kasi kaya niya magpaka abnormal sa klase. Kaya niya magpaka normal? O ineemphasize niyo lang na abnormal siya para matabunan ang pagka abnormal niyo? Grow-up Guys, Di na nakatutuwa. Di niyo maiaangat ang sarili nyo sa ginagawa niyo. Napagdaanan ko na yan. I don’t regret it. Pero Seniors na kayo e. Mas matindi pa kayo sa mga Gradeschool. Grow up!

Growing Up.

This week is full of negavibes. lol. Really. It has, really, been stressful to me. Yearbook stuffs and bugging me about the Layout. Gaaaad. And today, I guess I’ll have to watch a Indie Film and make a review about it.

 

I think I’ve done the right thing. To take the blame for the action. It’s true that I heard something that made my ear rang. So as a friend, I told it to her. Then the cycle goes on. I thought my bestfriend, too, heard the statement but he denied it.  Nakaaasar lang kasi parang talkshit-er na yung kalalabasan ko. In fact narinig niya daw pero sinabi niya na di niya narinig. What the hell? So pano na ako? Ipagpipilit ko na may narinig akong ganon? At ang alam ng karamihan na ako lang ang nakarinig. Zzzz.

 

Pero di ko na pinalala. Nag-apologize ako at inako lahat. Para di lang talaga lumala. Kasi pag ipinilit ko pa, at ipilit, at mabigo. Ako maaapektuhan e. Tska napagtanto ko narin na mas kaya kong humarap sa mga ganito. E sa attitude niya parang di niya kakayanin kaya ako nalang. Wag nalang sana talaga akong makakarinig ng hindi totoo sakin. Madaming nakakakilala sakin at hindi ako nagkakalat ng maling balita. Nagiimbento ako, minsan, pero sa mga ka-close ko lang. And after a few minutes irereveal ko rin na joke yon. Siguro sa ginawa kong ‘to. It’s part of my GROW UP plan.

 

I just felt betrayed.

Reverse Polarity?

LOL. Hahaha. San ko ba nanaman narinig yang term na yan. Hmmm? Bato Balani ata. Anyways, Ayun. Parang may glitch sa attitude ko this week. Epekto ba ‘to ng Global Warming? Bakit parang nagiging mas mabait ako. Which is not the true me. Ang nakasilayan kasi ng iba na Roe ay Hambog, Bully, Antipatiko at kung ano ano pa. Pero bakit parang bumabait ako. Tahimik na ako sa klase. “Tahimik” kasi wala naman talaga akong makausap sa pwesto ko.

 

Here’s the Rants:

1- Hindi lang naman kasi ako yung maingay e. Hahaha. May iba pang maingay bakit ako lang yung isolated? Hahaha. Tapos itatabi pa ako sa mga taong “…”. Mga taong NR. Was the seat plan made purposely for me to inspire or infect them with my PRECIOUS AURA. HAHAHA. Shet. Infect.

 

2- Yun na nga. Lagi pa akong nasa gilid. Yung nasa right ko NR yung iba pang mga katabi ko mga matatalino. Ano bang gusto niyong mafeel ko. One time talaga pag di ko na kinaya magdadala ako ng chainsaw. Lalagariin ko na yung kamay ko. Siyempre pipigilan niyo ko. At magpapapigil ako. Ano ako tanga? Hehe.

 

Today is the start of the Long Weekend and I am getting disappointed with this. Fuck Santi. Whoever you are. Bakit ngayon pa? October 31 ka maglalandfall tapos November 1 may ulan pa. BV ka rin e. Minsan na nga lang magdiwang ang mga patay e. Kawawa naman yung tatay ko. Well, they said it’s a blessing. Blessing siguro siya kung marerealize ng mga tao na they should save Mother Earth but if they would keep on ranting and blaming the Government, well, we will all gonna die bitches.

 

Election is getting near. Don’t hope for the Government to change, for the corruption to be gone, and for an honest leader to manipulate Philippines once again. Hope for yourself, for others. If the Government is stupid do we have the right to be stupid too? Ofcourse, We have but do we need to? If they won’t do it for us, well, can’t we do it for ourselves? Don’t rely too much on the Government. It’s time to MOOOOOVE.

 

Hahaha. See it’s not me! Seriously, I don’t used to care about the Government and the Philippines that much after I’ve read the essay of a Korean who envies Philippines for it’s Natural Wealth but pities Philippines for the stupidity of it’s people. STUPIDITY YOUUUUU!

KLEENEX.

What could I possibly be? More of a Human Kleenex. Well, I’m proud to be one. Kleenex is something you need when you are sick. When you need to clean up a mess. When you need to wipe out dirts. It’s strong and also soft. It can catch your tears when you cry. It can be used as a protection. It’s also disposable. Well, I hope I’m not. Thanks GUYS.

MAYBE YOU NEED ME. MAYBE YOU DON’T. OR MAYBE YOU NEED ME JUST FOR THE MOMENT.

0.1%

Mahal na mahal nga kita. Mahal mo ba ako? Alam mo bang mahal na mahal kita? Hindi naman e. Kahit 99.9% ang kawalan ng pag-asa ko sayo. Meron pa ring 0.1% na nalalabi para sa atin. Kaya nga kinakapitan ko yon e. Di ko alam kung nabulag ka na talaga sa kanya o sobrang kapal na nang pagmamahal sayo na binalutan na ang mga veins mo at ang puso mo na rin na nagdulot ng pagkastroke mo!

Parang awa mo na. Masaya na ako sa kalagayan ko ngayon. Pero wag mo nang ipamukha ha? Hahahaha. Ka-stress e.

I love you.

I don’t know how to start. So, here it goes. I’ve got a lot of options, choices, should I say.

PRESS 1:

She’s easy to be with. She also has a lot of friends. I can say that we’re so close at this time and hoping that that relationship will last long, not for eternity. I like her right now. I love to hang-out with her and do some silly stuffs.

PRESS 2:

An ordinary girl whose emotions were so visible. She’s so true that if you have done something wrong her reactions will take you off-guard because they’re very straight forward.

PRESS 3:

She was so far gone for me now. She has done something wrong that makes me ugh.

So what am I gonna do with these? All I can say is.. I love you all. LOL.

REACTIONS REACTIONS.

Sabi na e. Darating ang oras na mapupuna din yang mga kakaiba at nakakairitang reaksyon niyo. Uhh– di na kasi nakakatuwa. Straight to the point? Huwag kayong magfeeling na ka-close niyo yung mga yon. Pero I find that action rude to the teachers. Nababastos na sila e. Parang as if di na sila yung teacher. Parang ka-klase na lang na nagsasalita sa harap. We can see how the teacher’s attitude evolve and morph into something unexpected– and we didn’t realize that they also saw something unexpected about us. It’s our manners, rapidly morphing into sticky and THICK. Yeah. Thick like Hell.

I know that we can still fix this bullshit. Get a dustpan and wipe this out. Same as our bullshits too. So could you please watch your throws. It’s not as healthy as before. Save Mother Earth. Layo no? )

A day of only wishing for ice creams.

The school was not as good as it was before. There goes so much that I can’t absorb more than the half. I thought it was all okay after the week but it seems that it will take thousands of strides to push that button, to reset it all.

These past few days I’ve been listening to the musics that have topped the Billboard during 90’s and early 2000. I wish that I was just a kid once again. I hope that I’ll wake up one day and cry because my parents were gone off to the office. Not one day and cry because I’ve been missing my dad and have no chance to ever see him again.

Well, I’m trying to be the most optimistic as possible. I love laughter so much that I’ll try to make everyone laugh even though I’ll look stupid around those “usiseros” that are not part of my audience. I’m depressed because I know, I just know that my Social Life will rash down hard like a ball thrown up with a Initial Velocity of 50mps and reach its peak then boom with the magic of the gravity. What happened with math? Well, Sir Iean is right about relationships it has to end somehow but ours don’t have to end up like this. The relationship don’t have to end up with those reasons. Go! Scars makes a man more stronger. I hope that we will be able to learn to put ourselves into the right place, to put our reactions safely out somewhere. Don’t abuse others. If they give their right hand don’t ask for the left anymore. They have their feet naman diba? Mas madaling abutin yon.

PLEASE. Wake-up.

P.S. H’wag niyo naman sanang hintayin na magalit lahat ng inaakala niyong hindi magalit sa atin ng dahil lang sa inyo! Matuto naman sana kayong ilugar yang mga reaksyon niyo. Di lahat ng ginagawa niyo nakakatuwa. Hindi porket tumatawa ang karamihan e hindi ka na nakakairita sa ilan.